What is gone, makes room for gain elsewhere.
Ask yourself, what is it on this planet that I know something about, that needs doing, that wont get done unless I get up and do it.
Believe that every man is at his best and acts to the present level of his power of understanding. As must you, without complaint or distraction but ongoing rectification. Should you find toward your task that you stand alone with the uncommon division of labour, it should not constrain you thus to work still in the best interests of this great city. That you have carried out your role is the rightful course and this debt is not cancelled by aid or witness.
There is no wisdom to be got without struggle and the passing of fruitful years. They age quickest when permitted first from the inside. Approach representation and discover things for their essential elements of dust and intent and how they co-operate with the Entire. Flow through each experience undisturbed and go to your point neither shrinking from the unknown, nor clinging at the past. Leave things where they lie and be done with it there. You are the keeper of your state, on this pilgrimage to the shadows.