Danny James

Tag: existence

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”Sometimes I want to take in everything at once, and leave the confines of my singular existence. To not be so contained within myself. I’d like to leave my isolated mind and body and dissolve into the air. To stop interacting and fighting energy and integrate myself into energy itself. My mind would spill over and the contents would disperse themselves into the atmosphere. It wouldn’t be able to reel anymore; it would simply become enfolded in the life vibrating all over the universe. I want to be so fluid that I can experience the vitality and emotions of whoever I encounter, anywhere in the world at any point in time. I want to be a speck on a timeline running infinitely in both directions, skipping back and forth across it.”

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241: The smallest victory

Flies nine on my ceiling this evening, having entered my chamber with the curious warmth present Northern tides have given. All resting after another day of fussing about getting really nowhere, and they’re not even supposed to be alive at this time but here they all are: escapees of a usuality, entered by a hidden trapdoor in the seasons, a hole or a screen between realms left open. And how fine it is that they can sleep so peaceably at all, with as brief and miraculous, and unwelcome an existence as they live.

239: Further, it seems forever

It’s a curious thing from afar, to watch someone seemingly walking for walkings sake. By a roadside particularly, while traffic zooms by and with no enjoyable landscapes to canoe the warped and furious human musings. They are making as little ground as ever, almost entirely static and in the grandest system of things as the Earth rolls on away, perhaps are ever backsliding in the end. You begin to remember that it is not so much how far you can go, or how quickly you can get anywhere that counts for much, but the depths into which you are willing to adventure rather that offers many of the reasons to continue along this unknowable, incurable, limited and beautiful experience.

72: Take a knee, soldier

Unless they are aligned with your own hopes and pursuit of a truthful, just and purposeful existence consigned by Natures ordinance, be absolved of your need to carry another’s heavy expectations. More so, abandon those of your own forming you would dutifully hoist upon your bowed shoulders by some misled sense of import. There is too great an expense attached to the enterprise. Though indeed a stout man, in honour and action, and accepting all things under Creation’s gentle regulation are reconciled, knowing thus there is no challenge or change in this world you are not fit to bear, remember still; you are but a man.

Grant yourself leave to fail, to miss, to hold back, make another run when at full might, when the fires of presence once more your vessels rumble, and the winds of opportunity, blowing aims direction again press at your back; to have an ordinary day; unheroic and un-accomplished: It is sufficient, with what vigour resides in you that does not reach or strive to answer impossible notions, to just be.

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A serene existence to serene thinking is attached, like a happy shadow that despite the night stays close though you see it not.